Lost in life.. i want to sell my soul.?

when i was born in 1995 my real father left me to live with my mother. both my parents families were quite rich. then my dad wanted me back cause he wanted me to be raised with the servants and to live with his parents .. to avoid this my mum took me to oman where she met this guy and she married him for my sake.. i had the time of my life back then.. for a year or so that is.. he was quite rich but eventually he lost his job and we had to go back to our home country.. Pakistan.. i had never been in pakistan but i eventually got the hang of it. then my step dad changed to a complete differrent person. he never gave us money and i found out later tht he was investing in my step cousins future .. he used to live with us.. and my mum used to pay the rent of the apartment.. her family was quite rich but she lived off the interest frm her bank account.. then we came to england .. cause my mum wants me to have a good future.. and its been 5 months now my step father hasnt called.. i cant go to school because my mom has no money for the bus fare. we wont have anything to eat soon. i had a little cash on me when i came to england cause i sold my computer to my dad in pakistan. he still hasnt paid for it in full .. seeing my mum have no money.. i gave her mine. now neither of us have any cash and her family isnt sending the interest she gets off her bank account.. i feel so dead right now.. ive never had girlfreind in my life. ive got no xbox. just a laptop which my mum uses to do her college assignments. ive got the crappiest phone ever and i try to gain weight but cant. i feel as if i cant be more dead . i want to sell my soul to someone.. or better yet can someone kill me and make it quick and painless? i see kids playing their ps3's i feel lonely when i see guys with their girl friends .. and i ask myself dont i have the right to live? tears roll down my cheeks as i write all this .